Dear beautiful soul,
I know it's hard. I know it's breaking your heart, hurting you more than words can say, maybe even more than you are allowing yourself to feel.
I know you're feeling broken. Wondering what you've done wrong. Wondering 'why you'?
I know the huge amounts of emotions that overwhelm you right now. The confusion, the frustration, the never-ending disappointment.
I know how your heart is ripped open every time a friend announces a pregnancy and the torture of attending another baby shower.
I know how you question if you're doing enough and wondering when is it all going to end.
I know this because this was me.
Despite what you are feeling, I can tell you this for sure. It's not your fault. You are not broken. You are enough.
I wish with all my heart that I could fix things for you and give you what you desire. But we both know that there is no magic answer, no guaranteed prize in this game. All I can do is share what it took me eight years to learn, and that is this. Despite the outcome, it's so important, so vital, that you are ok, right now. That you nourish your soul, nurture your divine feminine, and do what makes your heart sing. I do not say this lightly. I know the pain you are feeling.
If I could do anything for you, I would guide you back to your heart. Let you know how there is still so much joy to be found in your life. That you are already complete. Life has its own way of unfolding, and if we just allow it, who knows what it will bring.
Accepting where things are at is incredibly hard. It is one of the hardest things I have ever done. It is not easy but on the other side is a sense of peace, a place of allowing.
Beautiful soul this is your time to let go of the struggle and to trust. It is time to feed your spirit with the wonderful things she desires. I know how easy it is to let life pass us by while we wait and wait.
There are ways to ease the struggle, to find more clarity, a little more joy in everyday life. You don’t need to suffer on your own, or hold it all in. This doesn’t need to define you. Please know that you are not alone and that there is support right now for you.